Baby Elephants Take Over The World

I don’t know why I’m here right now. I mean, I don’t know why I felt the need to open up WordPress.com and start writing. I’m not sure that I have anything to write today. Then again, when do I ever really have something to write? I’ll just do bullet points of what’s going on in my head right now, I suppose.

• I know it’s stupid, but I feel a bit hurt that I didn’t get a goodnight text from the boyfriend last night. He’s out of town, has been since Thursday, and I miss him even more this time because I was supposed to go with him on this trip. He usually texts me goodnight even when he is in town, so I felt a little forgotten.
• Today I weighed myself in at the smallest I’ve been since last December, 115.8 lbs. Which is super exciting to me because I’ve been going back and forth between 118 and 116 for the past month or so, and so it feel like I’ve finally broken through even though it’s not a huge loss. I still need to lose 15-ish pounds, and I really hope that doesn’t take me too long. Last night I was reading articles on intermittent fasting(IF). IF is not anorexia, it’s an on again off again fast, in rodents it is shown to have a lot of health benefits, like a boosted immunity, lower cholesterol, etc. Plus, compared to rodents who had caloric restrictions, in the long run both sets ate around the same calories, but the ones who fasted had less depression and lethargy. I was reading one instance in which someone decided that 6pm every night would be their switching point, and on their eating period they could eat whenever they wanted, as much as they wanted, and then at 6pm they switch to no food until 6pm the next day, that means really that every day you get either breakfast and lunch, or you get dinner, so it would be a 24 hours fast, but it wouldn’t seem like it. The idea behind it is that our ancestors didn’t eat all the time like we do, they ate when food was available and fasted until it was available again. I’m thinking I might try this, maybe for two weeks and see how it goes. Today, right now would be my eating day because I already started taking in calories around 1am because I felt like having an alcoholic beverage. I’ll do a little more research on it today and see if it really is a good idea or not. But it sounds like something I should try since I really like being able to go to a restaurant and eat everything on my plate, and as long as it was in my 24 hour eating period that would be okay.
• I’ve been going on walks for the last couple days, after realizing how long and far I could walk while at Burning Man it’s seems really stupid of me not to walk more places. I mean I can walk downtown in a matter of 30 minutes, if I’m not hurrying I can walk to the boyfriend’s house in 15 minutes, and hell, it feels like it would be a long ways away but I could probably walk to ex best friend’s house in a little over an hour, which isn’t a lot because I walk for about 6 hours straight before I absolutely need to sit down. Hm… I’m thinking maybe I’ll get rid of my car for a week and see if I can do everything I need to do on foot. Some people bike everywhere, but I feel really uncomfortable on a bike, I don’t like it, it makes me frustrated, but I do like walking. [Side note, I always spell “frustrated” wrong, I always want to add an extra “e” between the “t” and the “r”]
• It’s about time I got a fucking job! Tomorrow I’m going to start my search. Not today because Monday’s are bad days when you work, and I don’t want to talk to a manager on a Monday. I hate job hunting. I hate applying. I don’t mind interviewing. If I could just walk into a store and say “I want a job” and they said “let’s chat” and then hired me without me having to write a crap load of stuff down I would love searching for a job. I’ve only ever failed at one interview, and it was vibes, this lady who interviewed me just gave me bad vibes and I didn’t want to work for someone who gave me bad vibes, so I didn’t try too hard to win her over. But I can win over almost anyone if I want to [at least, so far in my experience].

Baby Elephants are cute!!!